looking for my muse
October 13, 2006
catesbool
friday.
beautiful day. sun is up. weather is 9 degrees or so dina tells me. it looks warm outside. i see two people passing by wearing only t-shirts. at least, i see a paradox there in the weather.
me, i’m just as paradoxical as the weather. i know i need to work. hey, it’s the weekend but i have an appointment with my supervisor on monday so i had better show him something.
problem is, i can write junks of blogs but i have no inspiration to work on my paper again. the muse has abandoned me and i am a sitting duck of laziness in this room playing super collapse.
then as i play, it hits me. i need my inspiration. i need someone to inspire me to do the things i need to do. anything or anyone that can make me come out of my hellhole. anything that can pull me out of my state of wretchedness.
right now, i am beginning to hate myself again for feeling so inadequate. i feel like i’m a big mass of inabilities that i cannot focus. i do know that i have just these mass of ideas that i cannot simply channel out the way i want to.
the inspiration to do things…
to stumble upon it is a great gift. to lose it can turn into a tragedy. to channel it properly is a great work indeed.
i need a shower.
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1. Polin | October 23, 2006 at 8:01 pm
muse? how about “fuck, i’m going home with a certificate of appreciation if i dont finish this damn thing!” hahaha. wabyu cates!
2. Polin | October 23, 2006 at 8:02 pm
certificate of participation pala.